my life as I am

“Hi, Anonymous4141!” Alalang-alala ko pa ang mga katagang sinabi n’ya sa akin nung panahong ‘yon… (hoo… naks ang lalim nun…)

well… medyo malugkot parin ako kasi ‘di ko s’ya nakausap nung computer time na at hanggang uwian… Kasi naman kausap n’ya si enne e! ‘yan tuloy! Pero impernes… magkikita pa naman kami sa school mamaya… ^^

I can’t wait to see him!

Regina Spektor
The Call lyrics
It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Til it was a battle cry

I’ll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You’ll come back
When it’s over
No need to say good bye

You’ll come back
When it’s over
No need to say good bye..

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Til they’re before your eyes

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye..

Galing sa Narnia 2… Kasi ‘yung ate ko naadik na dito e… e mefyo nakarelate din ako sa naka-underline… Pero kung titignan n’yo lang ‘yung lyrics, tapos isipin n’yo si Susan at Caspian, malulungkot kayo… At dahil naalala ko, nalungkot din ako… Pero, By the way, ‘di ‘yan ang topic natin… kaya babus… (sinadya kong babus ‘yan…)

Nagiging ako sa isang ‘di inaasahang panaginip… Na nag-tulak sa’kin para mag-aral ng mabuti… Ok, here goes…

There was this new teacher daw and I was helping her to do something… It was so dark… Like uhm… 7:00-8:00… And suddenly, someone came… The teacher said “I want to learn dark magic” to the person that just came… I said “NO!!! You might…!”

<*next day*>
I was at school… I was so quiet… Wondering why no one notices me the teacher last night…

We started the discussion… When I heard someone say, “Where’s Anonymous4141? (of course my real name)

I was like “Why didn’t that someone notice me?”
So I went to that person’s seat… While walking, I should see myself clearly reflected on a glass window… But, I saw myself like made up of thin air! While my other classmates are clearly reflected!

I was so scared… I noticed my classmates talking carelessly like there’s no teacher in front. Then I remembered what happened the night before…

The person that came pointed her fingers on me and the teacher and, without noticing, WE DIED…

I was shaking out of fear… But I managed to go back to my seat…
Then I noticed that Sparkle sees me… She doesn’t even know I’m a ghost! And Quartzs and TB also notices me. I forgot about being a ghost…

I went back home, seated on a sofa comfortably… Wondering why I’m not tired and realizing that no one’s home… I looked at the door and saw it CLOSED… LOCKED… I said to myself “I really am a ghost!”

People came, crying… Opened the door and said, ” I can’t believe Anonymous4141’s dead… She’s still alive and cheerful yesterday!” My family… crying and I can’t let them know I’m here… Just here… watching them… Then someone seated on the sofa where I sit… so I moved… It was my older sister… I saw her… Then she looked at me and said, “Anonymous4141?”
They looked at me and everything seemed like back to normal again… But they weren’t… Seeing me as a ghost made a difference… I have no wounds or whatever on my body but they really treat me as a friendly ghost…

“Study hard okay!”
“As long as no one noticed you’re a ghost, It’s okay.”
I really studied hard… The first time ever…

<*next day*>
I went to the school… I was so early that no one’s there… So I decided to explore the school… The places I have never seen before… I saw myself at a grassy somewhere… And I thought it was so nice there… like a paradise… Then I saw at my back, a man tied on the foot… lying… I pitied him… “Sir, Are you okay?”
“I see… you’re a ghost too…”
“Ah yes…”
“You still have an unfinished business like me so go back and do it.”
“its still early to go back to school…”
“My master’s coming… If he sees you…”
I heard footsteps so I ran… behind the something, I hid…
The man acted like sleeping…
Then a large man came and shouted, “Do your work or I’ll torture you more!!!”
I went back to school ‘coz I thought what I heard is enough… I don’t want to go eavesdropping…

(I can’t remember much since I am really scared so it ends here now)

PS please wish that it won’t happen in real life since I noticed now that I don’t want to die…